Baby,

I adore you.

I can't remember when or why or how, but I do. I don't think you realize how much I envy those girls who go to your school. How come they get to see you everyday when I don't? How come they get to laugh at your jokes, and touch your arm when I can't? You know, it's even gotten to the point when whenever I see a couple in the hallways hugging and laughing and kissing, I get kinda mad.

I want to do those things with you.

It's hard to think that such simple things like holding hands or watching TV together could mean so much to someone. But, I want to scream at the television screen with you-- I want to throw popcorn at you and fake a pout so that we can pretend to kiss and make up and end up making out until you have to leave. 

This isn't going to last, I know.

After all, we're only kids. But, we're not stupid. Every single moment we're together is another moment in life I don't regret-- I know I say stupid things that make you roll your eyes, but that's what I love about you so much. It's that you're so comfortable around me, you're like the best friend I could ever have but should never want.

But, I do. And I want you so badly.

And maybe you do feel the same way, maybe you don't. Maybe after you read this letter, we'll never be the same again. Is your voice going to be different on the phone? Will, if I ever get to see you again, your eyes grow softer or harder when you look at me?

Maybe I should forget about you- forget about us; it sounds harsh, I know, but love shouldn't be this hard. 

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, and I love you.

No.

I'm sorry that I love you.

Sincerely,
Someone you really need to forget about.

Hmm. I'm watching a medical drama. Wish it was House, but I think it's Grey's anatomy. Blah.
Yes, okay. So I totally ripped this off of <lj user="tsuppiyo">:

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
.Shower. Nao.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
Seeing as I'm wearing PJs, I have no cash on me. : D

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST."
FEST~

4. Favorite planet?
Pluto.

...NOWAIT. PLUTO ISN'T A PLANET ANYMORE. D<

Fuck, so I'm starting High School this year and everything's fine.

I've got my uniform and my bagpack and all that shit.

Only problem is I don't know how I'll get there. D:

I'm not sure if there's a bus, or if I have to take the public transit, and if or when I do, I have to find out what my route is.

D:

The thing is, I don't like buses. I don't like public transit.

It makes me uneasy, makes me squirm.

I have no idea which route to take.

;-; God, Help me.

Speaking of God, House brought up a good point a few episodes back.

"You can't be angry with God if you don't believe in him,"

Terduh!

"Do I turn you off?"

"Nope."

"Didn't think so."

So lately, I've been submerging myself in music to gain..er...inspiration, I guess, for icons. n_n
Clipping above was taken from 'Promiscious Girl' by Nelly Furtado, featuring..er..Justin Timberlake- No, wait, Timbaland. Sounds like some kind of African country. Huh.

Anyways, I honestly, honestly cannot wait for school to begin.

I mean, I know I say this every single school year, but I think my anticipation has reached it's peak for this summer. It's now the beginning of the second week of the last month of school. Only about 3 more weeks to go. 21 days. 504 hours. 30 240 minutes. 1 814 400 seconds. 1 814 399...Graaar. D:

It's a new school; I have to wear a uniform set. It's bigger. More students. High School is apparently the 4 years in your life that you will never forget. Except maybe for the next four years.

Will I make it? Of course I will.

Granted I won't die within the next few years. I won't.

If I do, I take this chance to tell everyone that yes, my brother did it, and I love you all very much. Please donate everything I own [ie; a piece of mouldy cheese, a crap computer, and books that have been read so many times the pages are falling off] to charity.

[P.S. New Icons! =D All icons are hand-made by yours truly; fonts and brushes are default except for 'Violation' which is used in the 'When the world ran out of colour' icon and the pretty-sure-I-got-it-somewhere-on-LJ-but-can't-remember-brush on the 'Hey there, Delilah' icon.]

D:

So, just about two of my friends have said that, because when I manage to pounce on them and start trying to talk to them, they go all..spasm-y and start telling me that they were about to leave. ;-;

Anyways, LJ-CUT SYSTEM! [Whoa, almost typed in 'cute' thar.]

Right, so I bought the Sims 2 game for Gamecube, and I must admit.

It is a lot of fun. The graphics are okay, and it's pretty much exactly the same as Sims 1 for the computer [that's right, folks, you can't create relationships between families, they're always roommates, and you can only create adults, not teens, seniors, or toddlers]. Another advantage of the game is that you can actually control your Sim's movements using the controller, as in you can move them around instead of pointing and 'clicking' to the direction you want them to go to.

Feeling a bit nostalgic? You can switch to the old system anytime you want by pressing the 'Z' button.

A lot of the items from the original 'Sims' are kept alive and well in this game, but there are also a lot of new, fun objects that you can buy and unlock. This includes the new 'U-Probe-It' set; a batch of Alien technology that was brought to the earth by the aliens that landed. Oh, did I mention that you can have Sims that are part alien?

Another awesome new feature is probably the cooking. You can choose and unlock recipes to cook, and have your Sim earn Skill Points by creating harder and harder dishes.

Tired of switching back and forth between Sims? Well, worry not! You can plug in a second controller to toggle split-screen mode, and a second player can control one sim while you control the other. Awesome, isn't it?

Unfortunately, Sims 2 has to have a lot of memory. You can only play one file and if you choose to make a new one, your previous one will be deleted. And since it's for the Gamecube, you will never be able to add expansion packs.

Grrr. My brother's playing Zelda and I can't play Sims. D: Off to badger him!

Ahh, finally.

I've figured out how to use those table things without screwing myself over. x)

Excellent! Off to an iconmaking frenzy, then.

ONWARDS! D<

Eugh.

So, life has been pretty boring. I bought my school uniform- McCarthy's carries strange sizes! I had to take a SMALL and it's still too big for me! Gaspazorz!

I can't wait for high school, though.

Sometimes I just want the summer to pass by...But, not really. I kinda like the freedom of not having to do homework.

Ah, well.